Hair Drama Part Deux

After forking over nearly $350, my hair is better. Not back to normal, but better, and thankfully, blonde. As superficial as it sounds, I need my blonde to function. It's part of my identity (Hello, BLONDE Suga....) Nothing against my brunette buds, but I just can't do brown.

Now it's Saturday night, and Sweetie is in the shower. We had a long talk on Wednesday about the sex issue, and I am so unsure about the whole situation. Something just doesn't seem quite right, even though he assured me he is totally attracted to me and loves sex when we do have it. I need to resolve this soon, as it's starting to really bother me. I told Sweetie I would stick it out and wait for him to figure things out, but he's going to have to start working on it soon. I can't wake up and go to bed every night essentially alone, even when he's right next to me. It just hurts too much.

Speaking of... the following song is especially applicable right now.

Beautiful Disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain’t right.... It just ain’t right
Oh and I don’t know
I don’t know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight...Hold on tight
Oh cuz I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long....So long
He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh cuz I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster