Out of sorts

I have several good things in my life to feel extremely happy about, but right now all I want to do is complain.

First, I am under the weather today. Second, certain things this weekend bothered me, and I am working on that. Although, considering I clearly don't know how to approach big issues, that's going to be a tough one. Third, I am trying to decide whether to:

a) look for a new job around here
b) say "forget it" and look for a new job back home and/or elsewhere
c) go back to school again

Big difference there, huh? As always there are pros and cons with all of them. For some reason I can't seem to get my head together enough to decide what is right for me.

Really, I wish I could figure out what I need and stick with it. Actually, I kind of know what I need, and I don't think I can have it. The thought is so painful that I can't even let myself think about it most times. So, instead, I make myself too busy to have time to think about it. It's gotten to the point that I don't even know HOW to stay home and do nothing anymore because I am so wound up all the time. I'm trying to relearn how to do that this week. That is my goal.